Friday, January 22, 2010

So sick of snow, cold, icy and everything else that comes with winter!! This morning I was going to go shopping but Brant struggled to get home on the icy roads so I decided to stay home and clean instead. I hope to get there tomorrow morning ... I have nephew baby Dawson shopping to do... oh and Brant's birthday shopping too! :)

Today Kaydence ate like a little piggy...and then she had 3 poopy diapers....WOW! She took a 3 hr nap this morning which gave me lots of time to get cleaning done. She got so excited at bath time that she threw her precious teddy in the was too wet to sleep with ... she was kind of sad! :(

Time to work out......ugh

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Today is by far one of the best day of the week.. THURSDAY!! The last day of the week and the start to a 3 day weekend!!

This evening I found myself looking at Kaydence and thinking that she looks "grown up!" I don't know if that is possible for a 15 mth old, but sometimes I just can't believe how fast the year has gone. She smiles these big huge smiles and you can see all the teeth that have grown into her once toothless grin, and I just think...WOW....where has the time gone? I know it is just a simple silly little thing but so true.
I made a new dish for supper tonight....Brant and I were not really fans and Kaydence gagged! Like bad enough that I thought I was going to have to clean up more than just supper mess - so I guess we are not tomato/basil people! :)

I am so excited to get my daycare going. I really wish I could get started soon. I would love to say I only have to work "weeks" at wells...someday. We are just waiting for the go ahead to put my name out there!

As I sit here at my computer, thinking of my beautiful baby girl sleeping in the room next to me, and my wonderful husband at work protecting the town we live in, my thoughts turn to something I read and I feel God totally meant for me. Right now I'm trying to work through a broken relationship, a relationship that I never thought I would ever have to try to repair. Not my husband :) but someone that is very close to me....if you are reading know who you are. My thoughts start with a passage from 2 Corinthians 5:18 "(GOD) has restored our relationship with him through Christ, and has given us this ministry of restoring relationships." another powerful statement from a book continues to say "relationships are ALWAYS worth restoring" I read that and cry...because unfortunately we live in this world of sin, and because of that sin we are stubborn, we don't want to forgive, instead we want to blame, we want accuse the other person of the wrong...... "who will be the peacemaker?" why are there so few peacemakers ??.... because peacemaking is HARD. I'm so torn between these quotes because I ask myself .... "why do 'I' have to be the peacemaker?" "why do I have to be the one to let my guard down first, and be the first to apologize when I feel 'I' am not in the wrong. How do I know that the other person doesn't feel the same way? So instead of confronting with love, we confront with madness which results in more hurt. At what point do we say "this is crazy" and get life back to normal..........
and than I read...... " If you've gotten anything at all out of following Christ, if his love has made any difference in your life, if being in a community of the Spirit means anything to you, ... AGREE WITH EACH OTHER, LOVE EACH OTHER, BE DEEP-SPIRITED FRIENDS" After reading those words I still fall into a feeling of "why." and I don't know if i mean that as a sttmnt or a question. Is is right to just forget the past and move on? We are also told to be honest, so in being honest - if asking for an apology is what we feel we need to move on ... is that wrong?

If we are to "sympothize" with the other persons feelings how is is not wrong for me to be selfish and want the other person to do the same thing? (because we are not to be selfish)

And now I come to my next struggle.....what steps do you take to resolve conflict when you feel you are being confronted for something you didn't do? How can you sit back and let someone accuse you of a sin you don't feel you did, or worse.... you feel it is a sin THEY have commited themselves. How does throwing it back in their face fix anything. and again i read ".....AGREE WITH EACH OTHER, LOVE EACH OTHER, BE DEEP-SPIRITED FRIENDS..." it sounds so easy when put into a sentence like that.....

I know these random questions asked to myself and partial quotes don't come down to make a lot of sense. And I don't feel I am closer to understanding why we go through the relationship struggles that we do. But I do know that my love for this person will never change, the love I have for this person will always out way the hurt I may feel they have caused me. No matter how much hurt I want to cause them in return will ever make it better until we are able to

Monday, January 18, 2010

Oh what a day! SO nice to have a Monday off! Kaydence and I enjoyed a pretty slow day. Grocery shopping, cleaning, laundry! Nothing too exciting! I finished my application for our daycare so it's going in the mail tomorrow! Once it's on file with the city I can schedule my classes. Six hours of classes, pass a felony and abuse bkground ck, test neg. for TB and I'm set to go!! I was looking around the basement this morning and looking at the stuff that we need to get rid of to make room for pack 'n plays and toys! hehe! we have a weight set that is NOT used and just taking up space. Once that is out of the way I can start moving around stuff!! So excited to get started!

Kaydence put together her first puzzle today!! It was so cute because she got so upset when a piece wouldnt fit! Daddy helped her with her animal puzzle - that one was a little harder!

Time to work on some pictures before off to bed. I did 2 sessions last week of adorable couples!!Goodnight All!

Sunday, January 17, 2010

So to continue with the first post on our blog - This morning after Kaydence's bath I took her into her room set her on the floor and went to her closet to pick out her clothes for the day. I was just talking to her as I do and mentioned that we needed to put lotion on her legs. She got up, walked over to her changing mat, picked up the very large bottle of baby lotion and brought if over to me - Now I ask, how on earth does a 14 and 1/2 mth old know the word 'lotion' and what you do with it? My "amazed" moment of the day.

We enjoyed a wonderful day with friends watching the Vikings game. Brant got up after 4 hrs of sleep just to watch the game - now that is some true team devotion! We came back home for some wonderful naps, planned out my very long grocery list for tomorrow, planned menus for the next 2 weeks and continued to work on paperwork for my daycare. Oh yeah, we are opening an in-home daycare!! I am SO excited to be able to stay at home with Kaydence and put our basement to good use. I have a lot of paperwork to complete yet and of course- finding kids to watch but after that we will be all set! I'm shooting for April 1st as a start date but would LOVE to start before that. We hope that the paperwork part will go quickly. So, if anyone has toys, pack'n plays, that sort of thing - that you would like to donate or even sell!! :) We will keep you posted on the progress!

Hey All Friends and Family - I decided that since I take WAY too many pictures of Kaydence and since we have wonderful G'mas and G'pas (or Kaydence's rather) that love to stay updated on what is going on in our lives, and since I have a wonderful friend that LOVES to check blog updates, it was time to start a blog.

I discovered this weekend during scrapbooking that I don't keep track of the little things as much as I should. I think back at the last 14, almost 15 mths of Kaydence's life and even though I remember each of her milestones I can't remember what date they took place - what mth or just how old she was. I decided our lives are too short to not take the time to keep track of the important things that are fun to look back on.

I have a wonderful husband who I couldn't live without and who I am so proud to be married to and an adorable daughter who is so precious and so incredibly smart I really don't know what to do with myself most day - and I decided I need to share this with the people I love the most!